mengenang kembali....

tadi malem, setelah satu setengah tahun aja ga ketemu, gw ketemu dirga lagi!huhu. sumpah ya waktu pertama ketemu,seneeeeeeng banget plus agak2 mellow. coz u know lah,jadi teringat semua masa2 pertama kali waktu dulu berjuang di malaysia.

dee,termasuk salah satu temen pertama gw. ni formasi awal kita.....







dee,gw,randy,jeje.
hmm,kapan yaah kita ngumpul bareng kayak gini lg?inget banget ni foto diambil pas kita lg pertama kali bertualang d negeri jiran. kita k klcc trus muter2 deh. gakan pernah lupa. kangeennn banget ma mereka2.
ntar mau majak poto dl dr dee yg td malem baru dyeh gw upload..

trus as inget2 ketemu dee td malem,jd inget, gw ma fred pernah satu kali chatting gtu, ngangen2in malay jg. ni chatny.....

anhalt frederick says:
mommy bau

vee just sent you a nudge.

vee says:
Enak aj..
loe th bau..
hahaha
udh mknny?

anhalt frederick says:
udh
sory2
tadi baru siap ngeroko
duh pi
hidup gua di sini sepi deh
ga ada teman
yang ada cuma cici gua
biasa nya yang dl teman ampe kebanyakan tiba2 seorang diri terus di weekend
sedih deh

vee says:
ko bs?
bknny loe msk college dsana
ms c ga ad tmn..
ga ad yg seasik kta kali y..
hahaha
gw kgn a1109 jg fred..

anhalt frederick says:
smua org di sini social life nya beda
smua pada kerja
nah
ada jg whites tuh
yang ga kerja...
tapi mereka sombong2 banget
ga mau terlalu bergaul ama kita2 asian
pada saat lo ada di msia dl sich belum terlalu rame
pas lo udh balik indo tuh

vee says:
Busyet
sombong2 amat..
penjajah dasar..Haha

anhalt frederick says:
international relationship nya tambah parah
biasa nya 1109 tuh penuh gila klo weekend
skrg tiba2 aja ga ada orang sama skali buat have fun
gua sedih deh ga punya temen di sini

vee says:
pas gw ad aj udh ngangenin apalg klo gw lbh lm stay..
hahaha
emg asian lg ga bnyk?
tp loe kerja jg kan fred?
y namany jg negri org
ga bs slmny ngarepin kyk dl2 aj kan..Huhu
ayo smangat fred!
cr pcr atuh..

anhalt frederick says:
iya, gawe bikin hari2 berlalu cepet banget
ga terasa udh 4 bulan aja di sini...
iya jg sich... wah asian di sini juga sama, smua pada kerja... sibuk ga menentu
iya jg sich... ga bisa seperti dl...
wah, cari pacar?
cari mati nama nya...
biaya idup aja gede nya minta ampun...
cari pacar mo spend berapaan tuh tiap bulan
kangen deh ama shoaib, dirga, fern, nico, arvin, smua nya deh...
randi, elo, dice...

vee says:
iya fred
gw jg kgn bgt ma kalian smua
ma suasana jmn dl
gosip2..
jalan2ny kta..
hmm gw jg ga nyangka dah staun aj gw mundur dr malay
n bntrlg gw jg cabs dr indo
ngejar mimpi n a better future la..Haha
time past people change..
Smuany hrs maju..
klo bs mgkn gw pgn ngebekuin wkt jmn2 dl kta msh brg
tp yaaa...
hahaha
kpn y kta bs ngumpul2 lg?

anhalt frederick says:
ke sunway, nonton movie sambil seton
itu dia pi
nga tau kapan lagi
abis semester ini, smua yang ada di malaysia pada graduate
rata2 ke aussie
kangen sunway, plg nya ke mamak yang di deket ridzuan tuh
yang ane orang india
hahaha

vee says:
Klo ga adventure k petaling street..Haha

anhalt frederick says:
plg nya cims2 trus sambung nonton di rumah lagi
and gossip2
ampe lu sering ketiduran di kasur gua
hahaha

vee says:
klo ga genjreng2 d rmh
smbl gangguin dee blajar
haha

anhalt frederick says:
iya... klo ga gangguin gua coli di malam hari
ahahhaa
lu ya... emang dasar

vee says:
iya trus ntn sunny yg nico mewek2!Haha
inget ga?

anhalt frederick says:
iya tuh, parah tuh orang
hahaha

vee says:
Weits gw gtu loh..
basically gw th udh tgl dstu kykny
haha

anhalt frederick says:
trus liatin randy yang sibuk dengerin rock songs sambil make headset..
iya2...
emang mo kmn rencana nya kamu pi?>

vee says:
trus fern yg suka matiin lampu dugem2 sndr pke laptopny..
ato ga dia maen game smp smgu ga kluar kmr..
parah!

anhalt frederick says:
iya tuh orang, pas randi plg tuh

vee says:
Rncnny mu k jepang bntr
trus k qatar fred
gawe...

anhalt frederick says:
si pern pake tidur sendirian and dugem di kamar sambil cims2
ga etis banget
wah, jaoh amat
qatar
wah...
kapan ya? ketemu lagi, cims2 bareng, sambil ngegossip?
ntah berapa tahun lagi baru bertemu....
gua jg ga bisa plg indo gara2 apply citizenship

vee says:
Mgkn hrs nunggu dekade bru bs ktm lg fred..
dee dah kul d ph,nico jg d padang,nyak ma randi brtahan d malay,fern ga tau msh idup pa ga,dice mgkn k aussie ntr n gw jg ngejar mimpi kliling duoia..
huhu
smeday klo kta dah settle mgkn pas blk indo kta bs ktm..
tp i wonder
bkl msh pd inget ga y ntr?






okay,call me emo or mellow or watever but im speechless reading this chat and seeing those pics. i just realised (again!) that I MISS U GUYS a lot!!
sniff..



i need to chill 1st.huff.

my one and only melting boi!haha

okay,i might appear like a complete idiot by actually uploading this pic here. but i CANT RESIST this one guy charm till i wanna share it to the world!!!hahahaha. njiz gw sounds stupid banget dah tapi gimana dwonk,entah kenapa hormon gue hanya bekerja kalo gue ngliat orang satu ini. yes,he's an actor. and yes, dozens of girls out there might have the same crush on him as i do but hey!this is my world,screw whatever i wanna do here,rite?

soooo..iya,gw in love,hmm,let me fix the phrase 1st coz i dont think im in love,gw in a HUGE crush on this guy.call me grupis,drama freak,or whatever u want,i dont care. karena emang gue sukaaaaaaa banget ma ni orang.

daniel phillip henney.
alasan knapa gw suka banget dia dan rela ditunjuk orang bodoh demi dia:
1. he's korean!half at least.
2. he's so darn cute man!how can u tahan those smile?!?!?!
3. he's charming.(at least everytime he acts in a movie he always succesfully charm me!hahahaha i turn psycho already!)
4. he's cute.
5. he's cute.
6. he's cute,have i mention he's cute?oh well...
7. he's cute.
hahaha. I cant believe i actually write these things and posted in my blog. but u know girls,we just wont stop doing stupid things to make us happy.note to self:HAPPY!.sumpah ya mungkin kalo gue boleh dapet 3 keinginan dr jin lampu centil yang bisanya cuma pake cangcut doang saking ga mampunya naro ac d lampunya situ,gw mau minta daniel henney feline loph ma gw,dia pindah agama,ma minta seribu permintaan lagi.
hmm..cakep banget siyh ni orang. dan hebatnya lagi. dia blom membuat saya bosan untuk terus ngliat mukanya dia again and again even filmnya udah lama banget n sering banget gue tonton, ato mungkin actingnyy ga sekeren tom hanks. but he got me everytime!. yah,gw emang lg living in dream kali yah,makanya yang bisa bikin gue exciting,bikin gue teriak2 histeris ato bahkan kejang2 cuma orang ini satu.

pernah nih satu kali gue lagi diem2 aja tuh sepanjang hari,trus gue nyetel celestial movies,pas banget lagi 2nd international pusan film festival d korea. gue ga nyadar siyh itu acara apa sampe sosok makhluk cantik satu ini lewat d red carpetnya!!!!!!dan percaya ga percaya gue triak trus loncat dari sofa straight ke depan tipi. OMG!dia cakep banget apalagi dia make setelan seducing mr.perfect. haihz,bikin jantung gue treadmill 15 menit ga seeh. fufufufu


hhh,kayaknya kalo ngomongin orang ini,gue bisa berlanjut sampe malem ke pagi ke malem ke pagi lagi,truuuusssss aja ga brenti2.haha. itu juga isinya pasti penuh histerical scream plus excitement2 ga jelas.
i am wat i am lah.






eniwei,,,,since ibu kost kembar sialku tercinta udah narik gw buat cabs,si tampan satu ini sampe sini dulu deh ceritanya.next time lg kali yaaa..hahaha

duh,baby,cukup ah,sebelum makin banyak lg yg protes dan muntah2.chao dulu yah.
mmuach!

Percakapan duo dumbo

Okay this has nothing to do with any important conversation.As a matter of fact it's not important at all considering the one that im talking to is Emon,a highly undefined creature.But i just feel like writing it down so i can show emon how Duh! he is.


(we were phoning while watching E.R:fathers and sons)
Emon:Gw ga percaya dewi persik pake topi bayi aneh itu.Geblek!Dia kayak mu hiking trus pake kupluk gunung yg dipasangin antena gps tau!Norak bgt c ni org..
Me:kpn c dia ga norak?!Apalg skrg dia brantem ma mantan wardrobeny.Dpecat kan tuh ahirny paadu2 omong..
Emon:syapa wardrobeny dia?
Me:lah itu yg asep2 itu..Kan wardrobeny dia dl
Emon:bukanny itu manajer dia?Ato asisten pribadiny?Ato wardrobeny?Ah b**i ni orang.Plin plan bgt c milih jabatan doang.Tp klo dia wardrobeny,beuh!Jatoh harga dr lu vi sbg wardrobe jg..Mukany ancur gtu!Parah dah parah!
Me:Eh nyet mksdny apa itu?Gw udh kaga wardrobe y fyi!Lgan sapa tau dia pake topeng gtu kan..Luarny aj kyk hanoman dlmny siyh james bond!Lagian lu tuh lg ntn paan siyh?Bknny ntn E.R?
Emon:iya ntn E.R tp keingetan dewi persik ngliat pemutar film jadul gtu..
Me:apa hubunganny?
Emon:ga ad,rol filmny mirip cangcut gw..
Me:mon daniel henney cakep bgt yaaaaa..Td c kingkong nlp gw trus dia nanya2 what if question gtu..
Emon:what if paan?What if lu jadi babuny daniel henney trus lu dhamilin then u found out he's gay at last?
Me:Iya trus bayi gw ma dia kembar cewe cowo,yg cewe dtumbalin pas bulan purnama yg cowo diadopsi pcr gayny dia..Gila lu!Ga kurang sadis prtanyaanny?Cowo kesayangan gw tuh!
Emon: maklumlah too much gay around u jd aja gw mikirny lebay.Trus what if apa jdny td?
Me: what if gw jadian ma daniel henney,apakah gw bakal bertahan klo tau: punggungny panuan,p***sny bercabang 2,dia trnyt pria metrosexual yg pake lipgloss dan pelembab plus bedak trus tiap 5menit skali dia nanya dia udah ok apa blom,ato pas pulang dari blanja sndr gw mendapati dia lg nyoba2in baju gw didepan cermin smbl pake2 high heels gw jg..
Emon: trus lu jwb apa?Lu bkl brtahan?Gw c yakin dia mu jd drag queen jg lu pst brtahan asal itu daniel henney!Hahaha
Me: haha tumben pinter lu!Ya iyalah,gw kan maw jd contoh yg baik bahwa love's dumb but not blind.Ahaha y gw jawablah:panuan doang ko bkn herpes,bercabang 20(amit2!!) jg gw jabanin dah,gpp metrosex kan lumayan gw suruh dia bli lipgloss n make up2 yg mahal jd kan bs share..Hahaha,nah yg takhir gw jawab gini mon 1.Ga mgkn gw blanja sndr krn pst dtemenin dia 2.Ga mgknlah dia make bju gw secara ukuran gw lbh kcil dr dia klopun dia mau pst dia bli sndrlah bju ceweny!Haha 3.Ga mgkn jg dia pake heels gw scara yg gw pny klo bkn converse y sendal jepit,ga kalah macho kan? :p sutralah daniel henney mah gw suruh jaim dl aj slm pcrn smp kta merit bru gila2an..
Emon: 1kata baik d bwt lu..Amiiinn!!Sapa taw gw bs jd artis jg ngikut dia..
Me: wuekz..Seijin gw dl dunx sbg istri..Haha mon,knapa c rmh2 org2 kaya tuh y slalu megah menakjubkan heboh bikin kagum tapi pasti terpencil jauh d ujung dunia udh gtu remang2 pula..
Emon: lu pst lg ntn when a stranger calls y?
Me: ho oh,diulang2 mulu..Rame c untungny..
Emon: hmm rmh2 org kaya pd jauh d ujung dunia soalny klo d tgh kota ntr dkira museum ato ga dikira tempat pameran barang2 antik..Udh gtu knp remang2 krn lu ga bole tau d dlm rmhny pd ngapain.Lu taw ga yg remang2 tu biasany t4 paan?
Me: t4 mesum,warung remang2 gtu..
Emon: nah itu jg sama dia remang2 krn dlmny ad stripper terselubung,makany dia bs jd kaya n bgn rumah kyk gtu jg!
Me: ah ngehe lu!Ngarang bgt siyh!Eh dituntut ma org kaya bru tau lu..Pencemaran nama baik!
Emon: y klo bapak baik ngerasa gw mencemarkan namany n maw nuntut..Bring it on man..Lagian slaen krn alsn td mrk udh ga mampu byr listrik mahal2 cuy makany hemat lampu bgt dah
Me: ngarang lu!Gw bilangin nyokap lu dah biar tau rasa ntr. ga ngrasa lu rumah lu kan jg trmsk yg kyk gtu mon!Haha
Emon: eits y beda dunx!Itu kan rmh orang tuaku bkn rmhku..
Me: sama aj!
(hening sejenak krn emon branjak beser k wc bntr)
Emon: back!Eh vi kta foto2 pra wedding gtu yuk..
Me: hah?Maksud loe?Ngapain gw bkn foto pra wed ma lu?
Emon:iseng aj..Kan klo foto2 studio gtu2 c udh biasa..Nah,kta bkn yg ga biasa yg super beda!Y foto pra wed lah..Pd bgs2 soalny v hslna..
Me: ya iyalah byrny jg brapa..
Emon: makany itu!Kta bikin yuk..Tmnny c kakak ad yg fotografer spesialis pra wed gtu nah kta bslah dpt diskon..Gw yg bayar dah..
Me: dih!Ogah..Bajuny gmn coba?
Emon: kta sewa aj klo ga kta k gedebage dah hunting
Me: knapa ga loe aj sndr c?
Emon: ya klo gw sendiri namany bkn foto pra wed lg dunx vi!Gmn siy lu!Masa gw nikahin dr sndr..
Me: haha parah bgt c lu..Narsis maksa2 org..
Emon: alah gw tau lu jg narsis makany gw ngajakin lu..
Me: wae!Lg diare gw..Narsisny lg off dl bwt smntr..Haha
Emon: eh,tapi bkl kualat ga c?
Me: kualat?Kualat knapa?
Emon: y klo ntr gw foto2 pra wed ma lu tktny mlh kualat ga jd lg ntrny..
Me: ga jd fotony mksd loe?
Emon: ga jd ma lu dodol!
Me: ga foto jg gakan jd mon
Emon: knapa?
Me: udh baca bulbo gw?Udh baca post gw?Lg ga mood!!!
Emon: who knows..
(hening lamaaaa bgt!Udh males ma topikny)
Me: mon mu bkn roti dl y..Laper!
Emon: yawdah ntr gw tlp lg d mlman..
Me: ok.Bye.
Emon: bye.


Hmm kita ni makhluk gila garing dan super membosankan.Plus kita kestuck satu sama lain.Haihz.



Me out.

Super Sensitive Day of the Week!!

Aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggghhhhh!!!

I swear to God!Today is the day where i feel like screaming out loud n shouting everyone around me!Plus throwing things,hitting stuff and kill some people if only it's allowed in this country.

ga tau kenapa hari ini super bad day aj.Entah karena gw lagi dapet jd hormon marah2 gw meningkat drastis sampe titik tertinggi sepanjang sejarah atau karena emang hampir semua orang di sekitar gw hari ini emang lg ga punya toleransi dan kesadaran untuk tidak BERTINGKAH like AS*%$#ES!!!Gw ga tau yang mana alasan tepatny.Yang gw tau hari ini adalah hari yang tepat buat make kaos dengan tulisan kapital warna merah mencrang yg super besar di depan ma blakangny: BEWARE!!!BOILING BLOOD is IN da HOUSE!!

I hate life today!Lousy and super annoying!Biatch.

My November 19th swuper sweet dweamz :)

Hujan,langitnya abu-abu,dinginny berhasil bikin gw bersenjatakan lengkap jaket,piyama panjang,kaos kaki mickey n selimut coklat tua kesayangan yang super lebar.Bru bangun dari tidur sore niyh.Pulang2 td keujanan trus mandi aer anget.Brr,bdnnya langsung manja minta ngeringkuk.Pas tidur barusan ga tau mimpi apa.Ga inget sama sekali,atau bahkan mungkin ga mimpi.Yang ada pas barusan bangun langsung inget mimpi semalem!.How can i forget it!It was swuper dwuper unbelieveably(did i spell correctly?) womantic n sweet!

Sennnneeeeeeng bgt kalo inget mimpi tadi malem.Bawaanny pengen swenyum twewuss. :)
Mimpiny siyh sebenerny ga gimana2,ga porno yg jelas!Haha.Detailnya banget juga sebenernya udah agak kabur dari ingatan.Ada gw,abang SN,gelanggang samudra smething,lumba2 n a bunch of crowd.Mungkin karena kemaren2 nonton discovery channel soal lumba2 n td mlm ngliat iklan ancol mansion jd mimpinya langsung bertempat in a place looks like gelanggang samudra.Not to mention that i was desperately wanting 2 get a kissed by dolphin picture in my dream!Haha too bad right before i was going 2 b kissed,when i lined up n waited 4 my turn,i ter-woke up.Smiling! :)

huff..Last nite was amazing!Huhu.Ga ada siyh adegan yang luar biasa.Tapi manis banget.C abang megang tangan gw,trus dia mangku gw spanjang mimpi(wow!I turned light in a night.Haha),ngobrol sama gw,meluk gw,okay there might have been a kissing scene but not a dirty wild kiss!It was a slow mild deep kiss where u can feel every inch of his feeling n all his heartbeat blending in together with yours till u feel as if u were 1 soul separated in 2 bodies.Huhu.Isnt that super sweet?Just a kiss,nothing more and it goes deep 2 the center of ur heart.
Ok,let all the details be mine only.. :)

yang jelas dia ga pernah pergi dari sisi gw slama itu,dia ngejaga gw banget. :) hmmpf,luluh...
I love the way he holds my hand and never let go(it's as if all he needs is me 2 be beside him),I love the way he puts me on his lap n hugs me from behind,I dont think i should mention how i love his kiss coz i already wrote a long line of it,but most of all,I love the way he talks to me,the way he looks into my eyes and not even looked away for a sec.Making me feel important n needed.
hmm,maybe that's what ive been searching from a guy,d feeling 2 be important n needed.And last nite,i got it from him.

Gw tau siyh entah gimana mimpi gw bakalan susah banget jd nyata.Apalg mengingat sang pangeran di mimpi gw itu c abang SN.Beuh,jauuuuh bnr dah digapainya.Haha itupun kalo gw niat menggapai(which unfortunately not!).



tapi kalo mimpi td malem boleg jadi nyata,smoga apa yg gw rasa gak salah dan smoga pas kenyataanny bakalan jauh jauh jauuuuhh lbh manis drpd td mlm.Amin! :)
ok,im fooling myself again.Haha





hmm,ga bisa brenti senyum,ga bs brenti nginget2 lg mimpi td mlm,ga bisaaaaa........ :) :) :) :)
let d dream be mine 4 a while till i sleep n get another sweet dream that'll replace it.Hmpf,ayo kita meringkuk lagi....

I Wuf U my Swuper Sweet Dweamz!!

191108,17:05

-BULu keBO

Ini adalah sebuah bulbo yg dipost sebelumnya ma tmn gw trus gw post trus dpost lg ma tmn gw trus dpost lg entah ma sapa dst dst dst. Well,pengen ngegelitik seorang teman lewat bulbo ini. Please,do enjoy it anyway coz it might sound like u!Haha


Subject: give it up la dude!Ahaha
message:
1. menurut lo cinta itu apa?
* something that makes u alive again after u being dead for a while..

2. bagi lo cinta itu nyenengin atau sebaliknya?
* beautifully painful

3. pernah nangis & sedih karena cinta?
* pernahlah namany jg manusia..

4. pernah tersenyum & bahagia karena cinta?
* that's why we keep falling and falling again tho it's wrong..

5. gimana pendapat lo, "cinta gak harus memiliki"?
* kata hiburan buat orang yang kalah yang tahu cara berbuat benar..

7. Tuhan nitip seseorang buat lo cintain, tapi orang itu malah sering buat lo nangis ato sedih,gimana?
* tuhan gakan pernah nitipin seseorang yg bisanya cuma bikin kita nangis atau sedih, Tuhan bilang 'ga boleh lg nyakitin diri sendiri!'

8. menurut lo,remaja" keq kita terlalu jauh gak sihh ngomongin cinta?
* jauuuhhhh bgt!Smp ga sdr klo love itself hurts ourself..

9. gimana kalo pacar lo yang bilang sayang sama lo, tapi dy sering buat lo nangis & sedih, lo milih bertahan & coba ngerti karena dy mank keq gitu sifatnya atau milih putus?
* cuma orang bodoh yg mau bertahan cm bwt bikin dirinya sakit lg buat yg kesekian kali,n im not gonna be that idiot!Is there anyone that dumb to let herself get hurted over n over again?OMG!

10. misalkan pacar lo bohongin lo,tapi lo gak tau gimana?
* kayakny gue ga bs diboongin d klo ketauan sorry to say tha HE'S A BLOODY JERK!Go to hell..

11. gimana kalo lo ngerasa berat pacaran sama pacar lo, soalny sifat dy yg lo gak suka?
* ya putuslah,kayak ga ada cowo laen aja d dunia ini..Hahaha

12. setuju ga,"kalo mank sayang, sesusah apapun, seberat apapun, lo harus pertahanin hubungan itu?
* only if it's worth to defend to.If it's not,why bother torturing urself?True love is when he loves u n respect u as u do to urself la..

13. adil gak, "lo trauma pacaran lagi karena pacar lo yang sebelumnya nyakitin lo,akhirny lo beranggapan semua cewe/cowo itu sama"?
* love like u never hurt before,GET IT?!?

14. lo pilih hidup dengan cinta atau tanpa cinta?
* ya dengan cintalah,love urself man!

15. apa yang lo lakuin kalo lo harus ngelepas orang yang lo sayang kareoa semakin lo sama dy,lo bakalan semakin menderita?
* ya lepasin aja,masa loe ga mau ngelepasin kanker yg trus2an ngegerogotin loe n bs bikin loe mati..Dun be that idiot la!!Huhu

16. ada gak sihh orang didunia ini,di zaman sekarang yang setia sama orang yang dy sayangin?
* pasti ada,gue iya,tp syapa ya yg gue sayangin?Hahaha

17. percaya gak,"ketika kamu melepaskan seseorang yang kamu sayangi, Tuhan akan memberimu lebih dari apa yang telah kamu lepaskan"?
* BANGET!Tuhan pst kasih yg lebih baik biar kita JAUH lbh bahagia...

18. kalo lagi sedih, lagi nangis apa yang lo lakuin?
* ya mewek2lah..Haha

19. gimana cara ilangin negative thinking sama orang yang lo sayang?
* stop n let him go,then u wont b having too much thought of him anymore,rite?

20. pilih dicintai atau mencintai?
* dicintai sama orang yang bikin kita bahagia instead of wasting our tears for him..

21. gimana cara ilangin kesedihan lo, kekecewaan lo?
* duet animal karaoke..

22. percaya gak, Tuhan bakalan bikin indah pada waktunya?
* dengan org yg tepat,pastinya...

23. dibalik penderitaan pasti ada kebahagiaan,percaya?
* percaya!

24. pengaruh cinta di hidup lo besar gak?
* ga smp bikin gue skinny n dumblah,im still fat n bloody happy!

25. punya pesan buat orang" yang sedih dan patah hati?
* cry it,get over it,forgive then find another 1 to forget it...

Hmm,temanku sayang u know who u r,rite?Smua jawaban gw disini adalah respon gue atas jawaban loe..Gw harap pas loe baca loe bakal ngerti that it's time 2 let go and move on for a better life.Pity urself coz we all already did.









ps: I just realized that there's no number 6!D person who made this bulletin 1st must b having dislexia..Haha kidding man..

Si wajah cinta itu!

"LOVE COME to THOSE WHO BELIEVE IT..And that's the way it is.."

hmm,laguny celine dion tuh nyepet,dalem dan ngena bgt dah!Huhu jd kepikiran sendiri pas td di bis balik k rmh,hey!it's been days n months n almost years n i havent found d love itself.
what cud possibly be wrong yah?Is it coz i didnt really search 4 it ato emang alasan klise emang blom dateng aj kali vi.

well,jd inget jaman2 dulu loh. Time where i still have 2 face that having boyfriend is a must or u get left behind in d society. kayakny punya pacar tuh kewajiban utama jaman dahulu kala. Cowo yg bs nganter jmpt kmn2,yg bs dibangga2in d dpn tmn2 n dpamer2in tiap ada acr skolah,yg bisa dpajang2 fotony d dompet ato d spion tengah mobil...Hahaha.Omg!Are we really that stupid back then?Oh ok,not we but me,am i?Geez. mau bilang maklumlah bocah2 labil smp sma yg inti duniany is to get most attention in this world!Haha sorry guys!No offense but it's true n u know it.

Klo flashback k masa2 itu n ngaca diri gw yg skrg. Gw bru sadar klo gw udah brubah 180derajat. brubah bgt2lah. jaman2 jahiliyah dulu tuh y gw suka bgt ngerengek2 maksa2 tmn2 gw buat nyariin gw cowo (shit!This's embarassing but wat 2 say i was a clown back then!). iya tuh,gw suka bgt minta crin pacar ma siapapun tmn gw. Yah,entah lbh besar mana antara rasa kasian mereka ma knyataan klo mereka emang tmn2 yg baik!(haha my friends ARE really GUD people!Thanks god! :)),mereka slalu mau bantuin gw. Tapi dasar nasib yah udah digimana2inpun tetep aj ketemuny ma yg salah lg,salah lg. Mulai dr yg ga serius yaitu pria2 dunia maya yg ga bgt jmn SMP dl(mirc rocks at that time man!),pria2 yg bikin gw sadar that my ability 2 conquer guys via phone is totally irresistible!!N earning too (cool! :p),branjak pas SMA mulai kpikiran aga2 serius dr c cina yg akhirny dilepasin krn saking bedanya warna kulit,Kaka kelas yg luluh berkat kemampuan gw tp trus mlh jadian ma bestbud gw,my MOST ELIGIBLE JERK on my universe yg sampe detik ini masih!Bikin gw slalu 'jatuh',Om vokalis yg dengan bajinganny memilih malaikat laknat dluar sana,smp sahabat2 gw n pria2 lain yg lebih baik ga gw mention coz cuma kesenangan sesaat doang!Huhu. Tho slalu ad pengecualian buat my MEJ,tp smua cerita2 gw slalu berakhir dgn knyataan klo gw slalu ktm cowo2 brengsek dan cerita2ny slalu bikin gw sakit!From bad 2 worse stories u name it la,been there done that!Tp udah gtu skrg c sumpah ya gw klo inget masa2 itu suka pengen ketawa ngakak!Ngetawain diri gw sndr..I was a phony man!But i get Dozens lessons 4 my life...

haihz,dr smua crita2 rengekan gw td trus gw ngliat lg idup gw taun2 blakangan ini. Yg gw bilang gw berubah,i did change. No more whining bout 'get me a boyfriend asap PLEASE!'. Klo dulu gw yg slalu nanya gitu k hampir smua tmn2 gw,skrg klo gw ktm anak2 lg yg ada malah mereka nanya:
"kapan lu maw pny pacar vi?"
"mana cowo lu?Cari napa.."
"betah amat c lu sndran?Mu gw crin cowo kaga?"
ato yg paling parah,
"kapan lu nikah?"
busyet dah kepikiran punya pacar aj kaga ditanya nikah.Tarik napas dah!Haihz.

Trus knapa y gw jadi gini skrg?Ga kepikiran nyari cowo.Jd dingin,jd super santai soal yg gtu2an.Entah sejak kapan gw memutuskan that im waiting but i aint searching,ill jz gonna sit here n open my heart,see who's cming n melt my heart.Haha. Selfish i know but i think i give up searching already.There's gotta be something 4 my soul smewhere i believe.

so meanwhile hampir sbagian tmn2 baik gw dah punya pasangan tetap n mulai merancang k arah pernikahan,atau sbagian lagi sedang bergulat ma permasalahan relationship yg udh smp titik pelik n struggling 2 get over it with best decision,atau sbagian kecil lagi yg bahkan udh nikah n beranjak k mikirin anak,gw masih disini2 aj,single n happy n not even think about it.Haha.It's not that having sme1 beside me is not an important thing,but i feel that it's not really a top priority 4 this moment.I hav people around me n tho it wont b enuff at 1 time but it's fine 4 me now.I hav other things in my head which shud cme 1st n boyfriend or marriage is jz smewhere on my priority list.

gw cuma berharap,Tuhan,smoga gw berubah kyk skrg ini krn emang gw udah sedikit lebih dewasa dan bukanny karena gw ga percaya lagi sama yg namany cinta sejati.Coz 2 b honest,a non-earning love is not a love 4 me now.Hahaha u may call me materialistic but im jz trying 2 be realistic!U cant buy me love but u can definitely get some 4 sometime..Hahaha crazy thought i know!!But thats life man,it's a bitch n it's bitchi-ing u..

Gw tau pada 1titik gw bkl brubah lg,gw bkl percaya lg n 'jatuh' bwt si cinta sejati,gw bkl ngalahin ego gw demi dia,berkorban demi dia dan bahkan jadi bodoh buta dan ga bisa dibilangin demi dia jg.Karena kata org itu wajah cinta sejati yang bisa bikin org ngelakuin apa aj bahkan mati atas nama cinta!Urm,bwt saat ini si wajah cinta sejati nampak seperti wajah org idiot yg mau aj dibodoh2in padahal dia tau itu ga bener.Tp hey!Ini gw skrg,entah bkl gmn gw suatu saat nanti.Entah kpn gw ketemu that true love tp gw cm berharap saat ketemu nanti,semoga gw ga jd org gila yg rela jd org bodoh,dan semoga gw ketemu org yg gakan bikin gw jd org gila gtu tp bikin gw jd jauh lbh baik!Amin!Krn bukanny cinta itu hrsny mengisi dengan lbh baik dan sempurna?Cih!Huhuhu



love comes 2 those who believe it...D thing is do i believe it?!?Haihz...

When's my romantic line will come?

"Last Holiday"

that's d last movie i watched this afternoon.I forgot how many times ive been watching it.I think it's about 4 or 5 times already.I jz never get bored and everytime i watched it,i feel touched always.Yeap,1st coz it's queen latifah's muvi n 2nd coz i just LOVE d whole story 4m beginning till end specially d last scene when sean says his very deeply romantic line 2 georgia: "georgia,i dont care how much time left in this world,5minutes or 50years,i just wanna spend every second of it 2 with u,for the rest of my life" (i cant remember precisely!That's more or less of it :p) oh my gosh!That's so freakin sweet man..I wud love 2 b georgia so much!Huhu

now i wonder,when will my dearest guy come n say those kind of line 4 me?!?
Fufufu

Minggu kehilangan..

Hmm....
minggu ini bnyk bgt kbr ttg org2 yg 'pergi'..Ad yg deeply sad,ad yg mlh jd question mark,ad yg mlh bkn kesel..

2 hr yg lalu,d tengah mlm buta tepat jm 12.16 mona nelpon gw.I thought she jz cudnt sleep bt then when i picked up the phone she's quietly said: "vi,rnd meninggal!". gw shock dunx!Tp trnyt itu blm sbrp krn mona nglanjutin kalimatny dengan: "rnd bunuh diri vi!!"
n so,gw speechless..
i mean wat d hell man?Mati?Bunuh diri?Ga ad crt laen apa yg bs gw dgr d tgh mlm buta diantara tdr gw itu..Sumpah!Gw langsung freak aj dunx!Krn rabu kmrn dia msh sms gw,as usual ngomel2 gtu..Dan krn gw emang lg super sibuk n lg ada gawean jd ga ada wkt bwt ngeladenin another old time storiesny dia.And when he's dead that of course brings me a bit guilty feeling....Udh super freak sgl mcm trus tauny bsk soreny,mona nlp gw lg dunx,dia blg ktny it was just a bloody bullshit!!Dia blg rnd made up all his suicidal dead story by himself then he spread it out...
yg pertamany gw freak out,feeling guilty sgl mcm brubah jd super Pissed off!!Wtf man!
knp c dia hrs bkn ulah kyk gtu?That's too much dude!Klo tmn2 loe yg iseng bkn gosip loe meninggal gr2 skt ato accident watever bwt iseng,gw dah bbrp kali kena kyk gtu n it was forgiveable!Tp klo loe ngarang loe mati n matiny bunuh diri,bwt gw itu PSYCHO!Bwt apa cb?Udh ga lucu iseng2 kyk gtu..Yg ad smua org akhirny males ma loe,akhirny marah..Dan gw pun akhirny ngrasa wasting time n energy smp gw sompral sndr knp c crt td ga bnrn aj?Biar tau!!Bt..
norak bgt dah!Dan ini brita kilangan mgu ini yg bikin marah..*%$&*#!!!!

crita kehilangan yg mlh jd question mark tuh wkt td mlm gw smsan ma emon..
Me: "lg dmn kmu?Freak nh brtny rnd!Tp mlh bkn bt akhirny..Norak bgt dah!Sue!"
emon: "lg d rmh,gy nunggu kbr dr tmn ktny nenekny kritis..Kmu dah confirm britany boong?Dtgin aj rame2.."
me: "kmu mu nyusulin dia?Emg skt apa?Udh confirm,klo trnyt emg bnrn y syukur d"
emon: "kykny c gtu,ga taw jg skt apa dia cm blg kritis doang..Tlplah k rmhny biar pst,udh nyumpah2in tawny ga gtu kn ga enak"
me: "emg syapa c?Tmn kmps?Ce?Co?Drawat dmn?Dah mlm gini kmu mu pegi jm brp?Bodo!Biar skalian d.."
emon: "d kebonjati,iya tmn kmps tp dah lulus gtu,ntr jm10an kykny ksana..Yawdahlah ga ush kmu pikirin lg,tdr gih dah mlm.."

abs itu gw mls aj bls lg abis jd mikir,syapa c tmnny ni org?Curiga cewe dah krn dia ga jwb pas takhir..Blm lg yg skt kan nenekny,niat amat smp nengokin sgl mlm2..Hmm.......


ni yg tragis..Wkt td ngbrl2 ma nie,dia crt soal tmnny yg skrg lg d rs.Dia blg tmnny tuh skg sktny smp nularin k bayiny n d baby died yesterday.Waktu gw dgr crtny dia sumpah y gw miris bgt!Dia cerita tmnny ni kuruuuuss bgt smp timbanganny aja cuma 35kg n she has a baby!!Isnt that creepy..Gw jd ngebayangin klo gw sakit2an n gara2 itu gw jd nularin sakit gw k baby gw.Dah gtu akhirny baby gw meninggal.Tuhan!Gw rasa gw bakal totally devastated.Udah sakit,hrs terus drawat d rs,bayi gw jd akhirny meninggal n duit makin abis...I dont think i can handle that..Kehilangan diri gw sndr mite not b as hard as loosing seseorang yg notabene darah daging gw sendiri...
sumpah miris bgt ngedengerny... :(


minggu ni tuh minggu kehilangan,yg bikin gw bertanya ke diri gw sendiri,kemana rasa kehilangan yg dulu gw punya bnyk?Kykny smuany udah menguap ma rasa sakit gw..
hhh,entah gimana crny klo ntar gw hrs ngadepin another tragic moment..

hope ill be strong enough...

An ending time..

I think it's about time 2 give up on d story n let eyereen n shyila decided how wud they hav their ending..

This is my final with no ending..

n im starting my new 1
my own story!


.Vee