baby moment..

Jz finished talking to my aunty n it makes me missed home so much.
miss my baby.badly.
miss waking up in d morning,sending him to school n picking up in d afternoon.
miss forcing him to shower after his short nap.
miss making another bottle of choco milk for him when he finished d one in his hand.
Miss watching tv show with him where he will sing along in between for a commercial song.
Miss dragging him to his bed after he fall asleep in my bed.
Miss going to timezone n play hockey ball.
Miss playing in d park,camwhoring and eating bakso afterwards...
Miss lifting him when he's tired roaming around,hugging him,biting his cheek and disturbing him when drinking milk.


Hmm,I wish I cud have my own baby by my side.
Sounds impossible for this moment.
Anyway,ill be having one someday.
Ill definitely wait for it!amin.

Huff..preparing for midnite shift now.dunno how to survive with my lack of sleeping.
Ganbatte vi!

Welcome to another nite without sleeping.

dreaming puppy..

I always wanna hav a dog in d 1st place..
Big huggable dog like those in d movies (happens that I watch too much movies n get influenced a lot from it!darn..)
We were talking bout it last time..

"Are u allergic to animals?coz I wanna have a dog later on"
'Nope,no allergens,hmm I want a husky,u like?'
"I LOVE husky!specially d plain white 1..
But I always want a labrador.."
'I always want to have husky..'
"I like big2 dogs,dats why I want black lab..
But we gotta own a house 1st n settling down
Coz if we're still moving around like this
How can we manage a dog?"
'Yeah I'd love to have 1 someday..here or smewhere else"
"I wanna stay smewhere in NZ or canada,it seems great.."
'We'll see..'
"Hmm,do u really wanna have a house wth me?"
'A home is more likely'
"A home where u will always comeback home too at d end of d day"
'Wudnt I be staying there?"
"I dun think so..u hav another place to stay to n someone awaits u"
'Dun say like that,u know how hard this is rite?'
"I know that's why I didn't expect much
If u can't marry me,may I jz hav ur baby?"
'Love to hear it from u..
Ok think more,than tell me again if u really mean it ok'
"I think having dog 1st wud b a much better idea
Tho I can't wait to be a mommy.."
'Will I be d daddy?'
"Finger cross for that"

Hmm..u know I always dream a puppy. Coz when I think of a puppy I think of having my life all fixed.
Means I settle down in 1 place,and have family. Family.
This is d most I dream about. Having a complete family.
With a complete set of father mother n children plus a dog as a pet..

But that picture seems hard to come true now.
N my life r just too hard to fix rite now..
Ill jz cross my fingers for watever life takes me too.
Pray for d best. Amin