Minggu kehilangan..

Hmm....
minggu ini bnyk bgt kbr ttg org2 yg 'pergi'..Ad yg deeply sad,ad yg mlh jd question mark,ad yg mlh bkn kesel..

2 hr yg lalu,d tengah mlm buta tepat jm 12.16 mona nelpon gw.I thought she jz cudnt sleep bt then when i picked up the phone she's quietly said: "vi,rnd meninggal!". gw shock dunx!Tp trnyt itu blm sbrp krn mona nglanjutin kalimatny dengan: "rnd bunuh diri vi!!"
n so,gw speechless..
i mean wat d hell man?Mati?Bunuh diri?Ga ad crt laen apa yg bs gw dgr d tgh mlm buta diantara tdr gw itu..Sumpah!Gw langsung freak aj dunx!Krn rabu kmrn dia msh sms gw,as usual ngomel2 gtu..Dan krn gw emang lg super sibuk n lg ada gawean jd ga ada wkt bwt ngeladenin another old time storiesny dia.And when he's dead that of course brings me a bit guilty feeling....Udh super freak sgl mcm trus tauny bsk soreny,mona nlp gw lg dunx,dia blg ktny it was just a bloody bullshit!!Dia blg rnd made up all his suicidal dead story by himself then he spread it out...
yg pertamany gw freak out,feeling guilty sgl mcm brubah jd super Pissed off!!Wtf man!
knp c dia hrs bkn ulah kyk gtu?That's too much dude!Klo tmn2 loe yg iseng bkn gosip loe meninggal gr2 skt ato accident watever bwt iseng,gw dah bbrp kali kena kyk gtu n it was forgiveable!Tp klo loe ngarang loe mati n matiny bunuh diri,bwt gw itu PSYCHO!Bwt apa cb?Udh ga lucu iseng2 kyk gtu..Yg ad smua org akhirny males ma loe,akhirny marah..Dan gw pun akhirny ngrasa wasting time n energy smp gw sompral sndr knp c crt td ga bnrn aj?Biar tau!!Bt..
norak bgt dah!Dan ini brita kilangan mgu ini yg bikin marah..*%$&*#!!!!

crita kehilangan yg mlh jd question mark tuh wkt td mlm gw smsan ma emon..
Me: "lg dmn kmu?Freak nh brtny rnd!Tp mlh bkn bt akhirny..Norak bgt dah!Sue!"
emon: "lg d rmh,gy nunggu kbr dr tmn ktny nenekny kritis..Kmu dah confirm britany boong?Dtgin aj rame2.."
me: "kmu mu nyusulin dia?Emg skt apa?Udh confirm,klo trnyt emg bnrn y syukur d"
emon: "kykny c gtu,ga taw jg skt apa dia cm blg kritis doang..Tlplah k rmhny biar pst,udh nyumpah2in tawny ga gtu kn ga enak"
me: "emg syapa c?Tmn kmps?Ce?Co?Drawat dmn?Dah mlm gini kmu mu pegi jm brp?Bodo!Biar skalian d.."
emon: "d kebonjati,iya tmn kmps tp dah lulus gtu,ntr jm10an kykny ksana..Yawdahlah ga ush kmu pikirin lg,tdr gih dah mlm.."

abs itu gw mls aj bls lg abis jd mikir,syapa c tmnny ni org?Curiga cewe dah krn dia ga jwb pas takhir..Blm lg yg skt kan nenekny,niat amat smp nengokin sgl mlm2..Hmm.......


ni yg tragis..Wkt td ngbrl2 ma nie,dia crt soal tmnny yg skrg lg d rs.Dia blg tmnny tuh skg sktny smp nularin k bayiny n d baby died yesterday.Waktu gw dgr crtny dia sumpah y gw miris bgt!Dia cerita tmnny ni kuruuuuss bgt smp timbanganny aja cuma 35kg n she has a baby!!Isnt that creepy..Gw jd ngebayangin klo gw sakit2an n gara2 itu gw jd nularin sakit gw k baby gw.Dah gtu akhirny baby gw meninggal.Tuhan!Gw rasa gw bakal totally devastated.Udah sakit,hrs terus drawat d rs,bayi gw jd akhirny meninggal n duit makin abis...I dont think i can handle that..Kehilangan diri gw sndr mite not b as hard as loosing seseorang yg notabene darah daging gw sendiri...
sumpah miris bgt ngedengerny... :(


minggu ni tuh minggu kehilangan,yg bikin gw bertanya ke diri gw sendiri,kemana rasa kehilangan yg dulu gw punya bnyk?Kykny smuany udah menguap ma rasa sakit gw..
hhh,entah gimana crny klo ntar gw hrs ngadepin another tragic moment..

hope ill be strong enough...